hi.. now i’m in a vengeance against myself for being a stubborn brat.. i concluded that i do have two persons in me.. like Jessica from heroes.. (still an addict..)

1st is my normal self: helpless, cry baby, nice, sweet, scared

2nd is my raging self: full of anger, bitterness, selfishness, revenge

why can’t i be somewhere in between? this is me,.. my extreme self.. i can be THIS good but i can be bad in just the same level.. is it not weird that i always describe myself just like that? am i not the best judge for myself? am i biased in some way? i don’t know,but right now, i’m conscious of it since i’ve hurt someone because of it, someone who doesn’t deserve any of it, or any of me…

i’m sorry.. but like i said, if it really doesn’t work we have to save ourselves from hurting each other before we don’t have anything left of us..

i’m scared to make a mistake..i’m scared to regret it.. i’m scared to lose you

chances are just chances if you won’t prove your worth for it.. you may not deserve me yesterday, now or even tomorrow,.. but this chance will… someday…

CHANGE. i have to..

Loser Duck