I’m really struggling dealing with life…

I’m pulled down by my blunders..

trying to make myself acceptable makes me less worthy to be..

Anyway, two things are in my mind right now… Redeem myself from a very low exam [eee105] and design the best ACtoDC supply [eee100]. I am enjoying the latter’s challenge since electronics is an art, and we don’t rush art, we make it a masterpiece…^_^[I'll be documenting it here after it's finish] Also, I’m bothered by a very difficult Machine Exercise on Floating Point Numbers. I hope i can finish it on time.. so far I have 50+ lines that doesn’t involve getting the sign and truncates using chopping… tsk.. tsk…  Assembly language is not the problem, but the analysis is just difficult to digest [I'm getting lost every time..]

More power to me..

*I can now text using the Benq M23 GSM Module , Documentation in the near future*

Congratulations to the USA Redeem Dream Team

I’ve told myself just a few days ago that i’m going to blog this day as soon as everything was finished and here I am now. I am so so so happy that I could sit down, relax and get a good night sleep!

Here’s the score:

AUG 16,2008

12midnight – 1230 – studying EEE53 with alvin in the lobby for the exam later

1230 – 230 – Lonely in my room, studying ee280 , Wireless Comms!!!

230-445 – SLEEPING.. dreaming.. paranoid that i’ll be late…

445 – 530 – Preparation for my 6am exam.. no breakfast (wrong move)

530 – 6 – walk with alvin to EEE

6-9 – EEE 53 exam (in between I felt that I was going to collapse, I was trembling, perspiring… good thing i brought water so I was able to hang on to the exam but it was really difficult )

9-930 – eat breakfast with alvin and jonz.. yummy milo.. )

930 – 1130 – in molave, back to studying for my wireless communications exam!

1130 – 1200 -  walk to EEE alone.. no lunch (wrong move again)

1200 – 200 – EE280 Exam.. Thankfully I predicted the right topics to focus on.. It was great.. although I expected more, i should be really thankful that it wasn’t the grads level of an exam.. yahoo!!!

2-230 – ERG tambayan.. tambay.. got nothing to do.. no money..

230-500 – ECE 141 class..  One last stop for the longest day ever!!! I couldn’t help my groupmates since my head ached again because of hunger but luckily we managed to finish it through

500 – 600 – surfing the net, relaxing, blogging…:)

It really turned out better than I expected.. Maybe I’ve prepared well even though I thought I didn’t.. eee53 was a hopeless case for me, I think more studying wouldn’t help me with the problems so forget about it.. Overall, i somehow feel emotional to see this day finish whatever the outcome of my exams are…:)

I’ve texted my mother a few times this day to tell what happened, and her support was a strength for me… that’s it, time to move on… this is only one day.. I’ve prepared for it the whole week and now it’s done like it was just a dream… amazing how life works..  so after a good rest, i’ll be working again here’s the dates to remember

AUG17 – finalized schematic diagram for EEE100 project: AC to DC converter (pls help.. )

AUG18 – outline of GSM Module PPT

AUG22 – deliverable from Sir Mike, 50 colorimeter modules

AUG26 – EEE105 2nd exam

AUG29 – EEE105 Machine Exercise 3

SEPT 2 – Submit EEE100 project

SEPT 6 – ECE141 2nd Exam

other dates:

AUG 18 – Ocean Park with co-Probies!!! Let’s start the work right.. ^_^

AUG 21 – happy bithday my brother [kuya itor ]!!!

if ever you wonder what it would be like being an electronics engineering student,

here’s a little glimpse of my eee life..

My first ever Fabricated Board!!! Note: not over etched.. ^_^

Astable-Monostable Multivibrator Design Problem

Board Layout, grawr…

Stuffing, Stuff. more Stuff!!!

Benq GSM Module Mode!!!! 300 pages command list along with it.. ^_^

Now at my 4th year, I’m really enjoying my course, yes it is tough (the math and stuff) but I would never change it for any other course..  Some would view this as very common electronic stuff but for me, it is another big step…

HELL WEEK NEXT WEEK.. Apparently my 2 exams this week was moved next week (yah, i know, crap) so overall I have: 3 exams GE1, EEE53 and EE280. 1 design problem, 1 machine problem and an ACLE to worry about.. oh goody!!! preparation needed..

3 hours to go before alvin’s birthday! i hope i’ll make him happy, wink!

Hi! This is a test post.. ^_^

as of now, I am very very busy with school.. I have lots of deadline to meet and exams to prepare.

Stuff I am into right now:
EE 280 (Wireless Communications I) Midterms

EEE 54(Electronic Circuits 2) Multivibrator Design

wish me luck! :p

… that never fails to defeat me

For every RGEP course taken where there are hundreds of students in a class there will always be a bonus question during exams that should have been a real bonus point but doesn’t simply because of students being so careless to not even know their professor’s full name. Yes, that’s right. BONUS(1pt):”What is the full name of your teacher?”… It came to me how disrespectful I am to not even know my professor’s name.. When I think about it, I use other terms to point to him: “Si Sir GE1″. Oh well, I have to learn my lesson from it.. I have still 2 GE subjects left for me and I’m really gonna kill myself if I’ll encounter that BONUS question once again unprepared…

if you don’t know your position, than you don’t have any directions!

i’ll be soon going home.. and i can’t wait.. however somethings and somebody is pulling me back. Mixed emotions is what i’m feeling right now.. anxious because of the last requirements for the semester: exams, practicals, and papers. Scared of the incoming results of my performance this semester. Depressed for wanting to enjoy the semester more but few days are actually left for it. And excited to see my lil sister graduate in her elementary level.

I’m really not ready to go forward but time says so. But i also don’t want to stop time since  i’m also looking forward to other things (NOT the exams, etc). I don’t like the thought of turning back time since this makes Life interesting.I want to skip time: fast forward passing by the times of pressure and frustration. But then i realized the feeling of reaching the finish line wouldn’t be THAT fulfilling.

Anyway.. this situation is really inevident and writing about it just releases my stress.. so let me do so… The decisions made, makes the best of everybody. It’s all about choices. So now, I’ll just keep moving forward, no regrets, and keep up with the forever challenge of mine:Of how to Live my Life right (‘right’ in my perspective.. )

This is a very cluttered entry. so i better stop and study..

P.S. I enjoyed reading anonymous filipino blogs..

If you’re not sure where you stand in someone’s life, it’s best to leave things behind so that if they drop you off, it will be easier to forget them. Don’t waste time waiting for nothing, when efforts are not recognized, its best to just give things up, you’ve done your part, let them do theirs.

 day number 23 of February was one of the tiring once for the whole semester, mentally and physically.

For the mental part, 2 big-time killer exams. Same day. No break. Enough said.

Physically, let’s just say i went to EEE then back to Eng’g/Molave twice, for details ask alvin..

oh here’s more, kuya lester, head of the application for yical, set the deadline for my Big  Choice when i was not ready yet.. i know, it’s still my fault to be undecided for a long long time but it’s over, there’s no turning back, i chose IRC Lab… it was a tough decision to make.. i am still sad and scared… but i’m happy to have known the people from yical and if i ever wish to switch back, i’m willing to go through everything again.. it is worth it..

more things to do.. deadlines…i have to live with deadlines.. another sad truth to live by..

lab report 5 for eee51

lab report 3 for eee44

AC design exercise for eee44

homework eee101

Group report for eee107

hi.

Just last night we’ve discovered that a construction worker has died in the basement on our dear dormitory early around 8am.. this FREAKED us out,  how on earth did the dormitory hide the facts?  At first i thought of a killer amidst the building but as i read through the news he died with no signs of injury and is still reviewed through autopsy. It was weird… the feeling gives me goosebumps, and now the dark is coming back so might as well take this thought out of my head before i freak out again.

Other updates in my shitty life…

EEE44 labrep

EEE107 practicals

EEE107 and 51 exam

IRC and YICAL interview****

All next week!!!!!

****-waaaahhh… dugdog dugdog…

hi.. besides collecting a ton of reflexive games, i am designing my desktop with a specific theme.. that is, valentines! haha,.. i just wanted some change… and it looks good.. care to share yours?

UP Fair is coming…

I can’t wait… but exams first: EEE103 Intro to Power Systems!

sigh, life a EEE student.. very fun,.. ^_^

just attended yesterday to EEE night (free food.. haha)

happy.happy.joy.joy!

.. turns to be something else..

 sorry for the over reaction or the GC-iness of the message.. actually i’m hating the feeling but the feeling is still there.. i’m way over my head! it sucks to be me..

here’s the story, i read the book ->exam problems were from the book -> over-confidence started to get me->passed my paper earlier than required->checked the book-> a negative sign should have been positive -> *shattering effect*-> can’t get over it up to now…

 yes, i know, so what? well what can i do, if you were in a situation where you studied WELL, you might feel the same… or maybe not..

i just felt that this is karma.. or just plain carelessness.. or karma due to carelesness.. or whatsoever you want to describe the situation… maybe it’s a lesson to lessen something.. lessen the greediness? am i greedy? can’t tell.. sigh.. i think i am in someway.. do others see of me that way? i hope not.. i really do hope not.. the worst thing to know is that someone is irritated with you..its a big No No!!!

sigh, am i okey now? nope, it still exists within me..