today i am inspired… but inspiration has an expiration date… in a few weeks time, we tend to go back to our old self  forgetting the focus on our dream…

While I’m still full of inspiration, I have to list my dreams here. This would be a constant reminder for me to what I really want in life…

Here are my dreams:

1. I want a family.. and become a mother of 2 to 4 kids. Cook breakfast/lunch and dinner, go malling, visiting school plays, decorate the house…

2. I want to travel, go anywhere! visit different places, try different things, and eat different delicacies

example: Disney world, bungee jumping, safari, ride an elephant, NBA game

3. I would like to live in a  house similar to those seen in subdivisions….and a garden would be nice…

4. I want to be a registered engineer with a job focusing on instrumentation and control. I like to collaborate with different engineers and do field tests on our design… i would like to have my dream team..

5. continuing #4, I like to have our project considered a breakthrough in R&D… a technology that could contribute to the community…

6. I still want to teach.. do volunteer work in nursery schools…

7. I also want to be a pioneer of something good! I want to help make a change and inspire..

8. I still want to venture a hobby of being a cartoonist .. though I’m really not skilled, I still want to try..

that’s it.. i’m smiling just thinking about it… to make these possible,  I should go to Grad school.. maybe not immediately after I graduate but in time I will go back…

stop and stretch…

think on this: know your priorities, be responsible for it and just enjoy doing all of it…

i repeat: enjoy!!!

i’m having a great 2 weeks ^_^

thanks for the gift irc…

ms1 exam tomorrow

redbox + swimming on wed..

alvin’s birthday on sunday..

^____^v

july 28 – pictorials

i’m so dead

1. i’m very poor!!! (dami kong liabilities.. nahihiya naman ako magpadagdag ng pera sa atm.. :/)

2. no creative shot yet!!! (no time to look for costume… omg… i’m very unprepared!)

3. hair cut or no hair cut dilemma

4. pimples should not grow!!!!! wahh…

5. no birthday plans..

6. extended abstract submission on july 30

7. ce22 exam on the same week

oh noes…

july 1, 2009 — i heard a heart breaking, never expected, life-changing news… my friend is sick.. i’m at a loss.  I can’t do anything about it but pray… these times I realize the uncertainty of our future, the unfairness of life, and the importance of every single moment spent with the ones you love…. i hope my feelings reaches her even if we are far from each other..

be strong, be positive, and look forward happily….

you are loved by many.. fight..

my 2 month old camera got broken

I failed taking responsibility of getting our allowance because of I woke up late

I almost blew the org recognition

I am stressed…

I am bothered by the future happenings on our thesis

I have lots to do but unable to think properly

I am losing my confidence

I am still the same old me… helpless… gullible… a loser…

waaaaaaaaaaaaah

i’ll start picking up the pieces and build myself right…

i can do it! more power to me and to alvin and to my eee-mates..

I haven’t posted for awhile due to exposure of my blog… as of now it is set on private to cool down my peers until they eventually forget about it…. Hopefully I would move to the domain that alvin gave to me…

it’s the 2nd week of February….

Events pop up one after the other: ERG Cup, EEE days, UP Fair and Valentine’s Day…  

Exams come and go too: ECE151, CoE115, ECE113, ECE157 and ECE117….

And some other activities is bothering me: MADC!!!!

but the saddest part is I’m pretty empty… alvin is uber busy… but I can’t blame him, he is loaded every week!  

cute nagisa.. x(

I’m also depressed of the events that are turning out in Clannad After Story… Yes, Nagisa already died and I cried so so much…. Episode 16 and 17 was a heart breaker!!!!!!

Anyhoo, I hope this week will be okey… Pre-Valentine’s Syndrome is setting in me… Maybe because I’m scared of what might happen… although I shouldn’t expect much from his busy schedule, I can’t help myself…. How silly of me…

BTW. CoE115’s 3rd Machine Problem is communicating with the GSM Module via UART of the z8 Encore! uC…. The thought is very difficult to grasp…. I can’t seem to fit it in the code… But after this, we would have built a working cellphone without the games, video, camera and voice applications.. Haha!!!

Last week was Molave week.. sadly, I didn’t participate much except watching Mutya ng Molave (funny.. )

And last saturday it was Nikki’s Birthday treat in Eastwood…. I have to say, the food was very purifying… go Vietnamese food Spring Rolls and Yummy noodles! I also love the ice cream… i heart dairy queen!

CR picture!yummy food

with the jester

I was uninspired to make anything in inkscape these past months… but just now I’ve stumbled upon a great amazing youtube video of making icon persons !!! It was wonderful example on using shadows, gradients and shiny tecniques! wow, wow, wow!!! I wanna do one! Amazing how the artist properly designed the clothes and hair! what a talent! waaahhhh!!! I’m so happy to have seen this!!!

I’ve been busy playing Rain-Slick Precipice of Darkness Episode 2 (I downloaded it today and may finish it tomorrow )… I’ve put our CoE115 Machine Problem on hold since I think were ahead of many.. we’re done on the alphanumeric stage of the keypad.. numlock and capslock to go… IRC work is piling up which includes finishing our long overdue turbimeter and some Core work which involves testing the GPS module while travelling… Our first trial for the GPS test was a waste since we made a mistake in creating a new file.. aww shucks.. 1 hour of walking and testing gone gone gone.. haha.. I haven’t gone to the Jobfair because of lack of time and company… Hopefully tomorrow I can go for a visit… ece 151 exam on Jan26 which happens to be the submission of Coe115 mp2….1st week of February would be the coe115 exam… also, the ece117 project proposal(which can be equated to half a thesis in terms of load) is due last week of january… there… more strength to me and to my eee-mates! let’s go eee!

1. I am sensitive with the people that revolves around me. I don’t want them to think wrong of me. I don’t want to become a burden. I cry easily. I am easily offended when the people close to me criticize me.

2. I am insensitive with my sorroundings. I don’t pay attention to things around me. thus I am not good in directions. and I am clueless when it comes to general knowledge.

3. I am clumsy. My reflexes are not good. My senses are not oriented enough to prevent blunders. Luck is not in my side.

4. I am not physically fit. I can’t lift heavy objects. I can’t run fast. My body aches the next day after some stretching and exercise.

5. I am lazy when it comes to eating. I only eat when I am hungry.

6. Wrong study habits. I tend to memorize the procedure how the problem works and rely on the sample exams. Understanding things does not fulfill me. I am naturally not thirsty for knowledge but am trying to.

7. The only person I can fight with is him. that’s wrong.

8. Others first before Me. I don’t want that, but it happens..

9. I envy people and thinks selfishly sometimes. I brag too.

10. I lack talent. I don’t play musical instruments. I don’t sing nor dance. But I can make animated characters. 

The reason I wrote this is to set clearly who I am now and who I should be in the future. I really want to change. Sometimes I feel hopeless because I was born this way. It has been 20 years since and nothing has changed. This is my lifestyle and I have to step up and say that I can control my decisions. I have to go for what’s best for me. I have always searched for recognition, appreciation and friendship but wanting so made me the loser that I am today. I don’t want to get depressed because of the truth but I think of it as a challenge for me to become stronger and wiser. Less than 2 years left before I enter the Real World it’s time for the transition. It’s time for change.

*Obama won…

Due to an unfortunate event that my phone rang during EEE105 class, I was forced to perform by our professor (it was rule set since beginning of the first semester)… It was crazy.. but i knew i can’t escape from it.  So instead of being the scared little girl that  am, I stood up and faced it… I figured that this will go no where if I continue to whine so I did what they wanted,… Besides, I am in good acquaintance (i think.. i hope..) with almost all of my classmates so performing won’t be so embarrassing and will be fully supported. It was just be considered as something fun stress free moment and not a superior humiliation explosion. Good thing I had my talent show[UP ERG] just this summer, so the feeling of presenting was still fresh… So I sang (it was hard singing at first but they started clapping and singing along.. ) they did enjoy it, and yes, I am now labeled as a performer of our batch.. geez.. what a name..  ”Erin at the beginning” that’s what they called it.. but what the hell.. they will forget it eventually… haha…

Thank you May, Xinia, Kat for writing down the lyrics instead of listening to the lecture..

Well, lessons learned…

1.Silent phone. period.

2.Don’t prolong the agony, relax and just give them what they want

3.Ma’am Joy is serious in her word

Thank you Alvin, for texting and missing me at the right moment.. ^_^ joke!!! Honestly, thanks for being the source of my confidence…