july 1, 2009 — i heard a heart breaking, never expected, life-changing news… my friend is sick.. i’m at a loss.  I can’t do anything about it but pray… these times I realize the uncertainty of our future, the unfairness of life, and the importance of every single moment spent with the ones you love…. i hope my feelings reaches her even if we are far from each other..

be strong, be positive, and look forward happily….

you are loved by many.. fight..

last October 24 was the birthday of our pxii freind, ara. She is now 19 like the rest of us, except for pheigh that is. It’s the last birthday celebration for this year so it might be the time for me to hibernate!!! haha… But I wish that us, girls, would have a night-out for ourselves.

here are pictures from the celebration, c/o nikki! thanks nikki!

tequila..^_^

me and the birthday celebrant

Not only did I ate a lot (3 pieces of chicken while others ate only 1!), but i personally enjoyed the tequila, not because i am “tanggera” like others might think, but because it was different . I know i’m vague but i can’t explain it with words… It was a higher status of drinking, which had the purpose of socializing instead of letting yourself be a wacko for a night. I don’t know.. but i said enough,  i know i’ll always be the loser in this argument.

  “Enjoy yourself. These are the good old days you’re going to miss in the years ahead.”

yesterday was the celebration of my pxii friend, stephanie therese leigh cordero also known to be pheigh. She was the bunso of our barkada which made it extra special to see her celebrate her 18th birthday.. there were tons of surprises and i’m glad to have been part of the surprise even if i didn’t put too much effort on it compared to the others..sorry!!! But still, being part of someone that somehow changed her life in even the smallest/simplest way possible makes me feel happy to see that i am a use in this world after all… And I hope i would be remembered not just as the friend who wears anything wearable without fashion consent, or the friend that lets her cheat on an exam, but the friend that believed in her that somehow inspired her to push through in her journey confidently..

 Although i was deprived from sleep that night, inhaled a hell lot of smoke, and wore an  oh so skinny sleeveless shirt just to be welcomed as “maporma”, It was all for pheigh and for the group.. and i enjoyed it anyway..

 i didn’t even finish one bottle of beer nor took a single puff of cigarette! hurray!

i’m a loser!but i like myself this way..

 ”"A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself.”"