Hi, yesterday my uncle and his family had a fire accident. I’m shocked to hear the news and am not sure how to react..  I wanted to help, but i myself am helpless when it comes to situations like these.  I was affected by what happened but unable to express it to them.. I want to show my deepest concern because they have been hospitable with me and my brother when it comes to ‘no where to live, dormitory not open’ matters. The problem is HOW.. if we visited them in the East Avenue Hospital, what would we do there? what will we say?  For sure there are more visitors that they will entertain, those who were really close to them. If we do speak, its awkward since we never communicate except for one question one answer scheme. So we might as well do not visit them and look like we never cared at all… It hurts to think of it that way. But it seems there’s no other choice to make.

This unfortunate event made me more depressed on how our stand is when it comes to our relatives. Bloodlines who are more attached will immediately go to the hospital to visit them, but for us,  we have to think twice, thrice until the opportunity disappears. I’m ashamed for myself. It will be difficult to face my uncle after what happened… But that is how we grew. I can’t blame my mother since she tries her best ever since. It was plainly our choice. So what now? Each day passing by I am bothered by the situation..** sigh** ..I guess i have to live normally and continue battling the last two weeks of the semester, prevent my kids to become like i am now…. and…. Pray for my uncle, that’s the best thing i could do for them right now.

http://www.gmanews.tv/story/84745/1-hurt-in-2-predawn-fires-in-Valenzuela-City

christmas is here… honestly i don’t know what to write.. i’m just happy with how things are going for me and for the one’s i love.. my family, alvin, pxii’s, roommates, orgmates, eee-mates… everybody..  as long as they are strong, it goes the same with me.. they make me who i am now.. alive…

i received gifts this christmas but what really matters to me is i see them happy with my presence…

i have known tons of people but i held my head up high to only a few.. those people showed me the best thing in life which is to spread the good and inspire them… i want to do the same… the feeling of doing so would be fulfilling.. this is my lifelong wish.. this may be my purpose..

As i helped my mother bake leche flan  i wonder how would i deal christmas with my very own family? ahah… i’m excited just thinking about it.. I’m excited to show love.. no matter how hard it is to bake.. as long as there is heart it will definitely taste good…

that’s for the future.. but as of now.. i just have to show my love to my family in a different manner than cooking.. that is, study harder… make them proud.. make them feel that it’s for them.. a BIG INVISIBLE THANK YOU… having your parents attending graduation would be the best gift of all for them isn’t it? the look in their faces at that moment would be worth the whole 5 years of perspiration..

Lastly, alvin.. we’ve been there for each other for a long time and his presence made me a whole lot stronger.. i believe on myself more because of him.. and i definitely believe that there’s a big future ahead of us.. he is someone special i hold on to and think about every night.. I will take care of him and love him.. ^_^

 i wish i could find more ways to show my love for him..  words just can’t express what’s inside of me..

with him, i feel warmth and happiness .. i wish.. i wish.. i wish.. i could do the same for him..

just watched Meet the Robinsons recently with my brother in our room.. It was funny, amusing but slightly predictable.. like the future kid, Wilber, being Lewis’ son in the future.. and the villain bowler hat guy to be Lewis’ roomate in the orphanage.. Still, it is touching… It’s a great story about family,accepting failures and just being contended. Plus the animation amazes me, i want to learn how it works but i think i don’t have any patience for it!  :(  I wish i could get a chance to explore how these animated films are created step by step!

I envy Lewis for being someone  amazingly smart.. i do wish to be a great creator someday… to earn recognition for something life/world-changing… to create a new generation because of it! BUT reality really sucks and a change that BIG is really impossible to attain by only 1 person.. let’s face facts, everything amazing are already discovered nad invented by famous scientists dead and alive.. what else can we discover? Sadly, we can only improve/innovate previous discovers which, i think, will never be felt by everyone.  Yet, I’ll  still be keeping this great motto: “Keep moving Forward”, whatever happens, never ever give up!

this is what we’ve been doing the past days.. ^_^ or minutes.. hehe

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sebet, study na!

the travel was so fast, i can’t believe i’m back here again.. I was so used to living in UP, studying endlessly in the dormitory, getting late for my 8:45 class(even my 10:00 class), and most of all being with alvin everyday… Now I’m here in my hometown questioning what i will be doing here for the next three weeks.. the feeling is different hence uncomfortable.. but on the other hand i’m happy to see my family well and thrilled to see me, the three weeks that i’m here is for them.. Lastly, i’m happy to know that my grades for the semester was good and i have no problem in admitting the required subjects for next semester.. clap clap*.. oh wait.. online registration is another issue.. sigh*

anyway, here’s what’s different in our home:

1. kitchen is pink, wonder why dad never argued about the color pink?

2. new washing machine.. but they are still using the old one, and sometimes both!

3. My younger sister, Sebet, is freaking tall! wah!

4. My brother, Itor, is attending a pellet gun war called “Air Gun” for his past time,.. he wears a military outfit and all.. cool..

5.Mama finished his cross-stitch butterfly and had it framed (at last!)

6. Isent is still in UP and will be going home on the 30th.. sad..